1|31|08
Micromaniging and PSY101

Recently the topic of discussion in my psyhcology class has been that which revolves around the meaning of 
"psyhcology" which is the quote-unquote scintific study of the human thinking and behavioral process. Now if we want
 to get technical, that definiton will only be of use to us for the next 10 or so years, untill it changes again for the 7th 
time.Our professor seems to point the class in a direction in which a brick wall is layed to divide the diffrences 
between the two majoritys of Pshycologists which are Clinical and Reaserch. The kind ive worked with have been 
strictly clinical therapists and of which 7 schools of pshycology each of them relate to, im still unsure. From what I 
understand tho clinicians get thier information or studies from reaserch which the other 50% of physcologists do 
weather it be experimental, observation, statistical, or biological.

The desks ive sat behind, the people on the other end, leaning back in thier "highchair", arent the ones I should blame. 
Its the reaserchers who never face to face listen to a patients bullshit besides for an occurance which, they hope, will 
provide for them information on whatever subject they may be documenting (in which they are being overly analitical). 
These pompus idiots who leave out the outlyers of thier correlations and present only the flow of cases which point to 
one solid conclusion.
With that being said, I have sat though bullshit session after bullshit session being told that I was wrong and having 
whatever I said repeated but that time followed by "its expected, its all here in this book". Self-Astrangment may be the 
case and, in my eyes, applys to 95% of the youth in america today. For me, or anyone for that matter, to be hurrded like 
a sheep in a flock of undistiguishable nucences, is contradictory to the said reason for pshycology.


1|24|08
The Come Back

Well, after being sent to several treatment programs and residental treatment centers, I'am finnaly home and coming 
back strong. This past year left me optimistic for my future and hopefull for what may come. The full story is underway 
and being written as you read this. Paintball is and will continue to be a huge part in my life. Thank you to everyone that 
has supported me from before I got sent away, to through out all of the bullshit, and up untill now.